Difficult people and even more difficult feelings. aka jealousy

first off, difficult people!!! i do not understand why some people just love to make things hard for others. i mean come on!!! people have their own problems as it is without you making the list longer. you have got to cooperate and live by the give and take rules and not just take. or in this case, demand something that will inconvenience other people. think of others for a change why don't you.

if that isn't annoying enough, my jealousy of this other girl has gotten me feeling bad about myself which by the way is the most horrible feeling in the world. as it stands, i already have a low self esteem problem and seeing other people be much more prettier than me and be so natural at it makes me so damn jealous. and i do not even want to be jealous. i wish this thing, this feeling, would just go away.

plus, i don't want to trouble my dad by making him drive all the way to this shopping complex to send me for a movie with my friends but my friends are insisting that we go there because it is closer for that one friend who loves that shopping complex for no apparent reason. even though they know that my dad can't drive properly and my mom is too much of a don not trouble me kid of a person, they still insist on having the outing there. oh how much i hate them for that. i hate the fact that this has happened to me. the fact that my dad can't drive and he was the sporting one who would actually drive us here and there without complaining at all. my mom on the other hand, no disrespect to her or anything but she will always complain of everything. and everything and to convenience her. argh!! don't you just feel annoyed by people like that. but oh well, this is all a testing by god. i need a solution. period. this squabbling will never help.